On September 30, 2017, I had decided I wanted to take my life. This was due to a build up of burdens including financial stress, familial stress, and lacking a community. Making it to OU as a queer and trans student of color was a hurdle within itself, but OU does not cultivate a space for people like me to survive once we land a place on this campus. It’s an isolating and scary place for marginalized communities, and for me, OU existed as an institution that made me want to kill myself.
Going to Project Threshold literally saved my life. My attempt to take my life was unsuccessful and I am thankful for that, but it was hard to get back on my feet after the mental trauma I had to undergo. Despite an overwhelming amount of students entering each year, Project Threshold welcomed me with open arms. I remember being a scared freshman crying in Mrs. Jackson’s office because the burden of everything was weighing me down. I remember wanting to drop out of OU multiple times because I felt like I could not make it on this campus. I had self doubts about college and was stressed because OU was not a campus I could thrive in.
I lacked a community at OU, but Project Threshold has given me so much more than just community. I found a home, a family, and people I trust wholeheartedly. Scott and Mrs. Jackson are not just my counselors, but my family members. Mrs. Jackson provided me with support and love when I had no family to rely on. They are people who have seen me at my worst and see me thriving now. They are people I can tell everything and anything to. I cannot be the person that I am without their help.
The counselors go above and beyond to help their students because this program is so much more than just a resource for marginalized students on campus. This place is a home for us, and we will not let anyone mess with this family.