Hi, I am a slut.
Or that is what society has led me to believe.
It has taken my identity from me,
twisted it and turned it,
and after a while
it spat it out again.
Because of my experiences.
Because of my choices,
And choices that were never given to me.
That is where I fit.
I am a slut.
I am a slut because I am a statistic.
I am the 1 in every 4.
1 of the unlucky.
1 that now dares to speak up.
But believe me,
I was not always like this.
Society has told me to shut up.
And still does.
But I got horrified of the silence.
It ate me up from within.
I held the truth from myself.
It took me 6 months.
6 months to admit
Not anyone else.
That what had happened to me was real.
That is how strong the power, of a need for silence, of society is.
It took me 1 year to start talking about it to others.
And I have yet to tell my parents about it,
And I do not know if I ever will.
That is how strong the shame is.
Society has taught me that what happened to me
That I no longer have claim to:
Today I refuse to believe it.
Today I choose to speak up.
I was raped at 16.
I can say that out loud now.
But that is not all I am.
And it is not okay that I believed that for almost 5 years.
It is not okay that I blamed myself for 5 years.
It is not okay that I mistreated myself for 5 years.
And it is not okay that I forgot my own self-worth for 5 years.
And if this is my story.
I wonder how all the other 1 in 4s feel.
Society teaches us that it is okay to call each other:
and I have been called all
some choose to call me nothing at all.
These people simply ignore me.
But what do these words tell us?
They tell us that we are worthless.
So, I have chosen to take the one.
The one word that I got called the most.
The one that hurt me the most.
The one which I heard after I confessed to another human for the first time what had happened to me.
That word is SLUT.
So, hi I am a slut.
I am reclaiming the word.
Making it mine.
In hopes that I can empower others.
Others that have gone through the same.
I will no longer be blamed for what happened to me
And I will not stand by when others get blamed for what happened to them.
Victim blaming is not okay.
And you should not be okay with it.
Hi, I am a slut
But that is my word
You can’t use it against me.